today was a bad day.
to call it a bad day would even be an understatement.
because underneath the laughter and smiles, i felt like crap.
i still felt like crying even when i was laughing.

i think the compre we did was meaningful. taught me stuff.
not to mention the easiest compre ever. with 4 questions. but that's not the point.
we must not always blame others.
cos sometimes, we're at fault too. in fact, most of the time.
troubles all start from ourselves.
but i guess they're inevitable.

so many problems are all piling up.
and the greatest problem of all still hasnt been resolved.
and although i really want to make it all alright, i just dont know how.

i failed maths
failed physics
failed bio
could fail chinese.

my studies are still like crap. and no matter how much i try they dont seem to be improving.
and tuition doesnt seem to be helping either.
but hopefully it will

peilih asked why im always so mean to myself.
and i thought about it, and i really dont know.
why im always putting myself down. making myself so inferior to others.
why im always so negative about others.
but i really dont know.

today melwee gave me a small note (:
and you know even though that note was really small, it meant a lot (:
i dont know why.
but thank you melwee anyway (:
i love you! (:

valentine's day was a day full of love.
but it was a day for one big disappointment as well.
thanks to everyone who gave me presents (:
they made my day, really <3
and to chinwen and xiaoen, thank you my two darling juniors. your letters were really touching (: it made me tear, but i really wanna thank you two :D
you're really nice people :D

well anyway today was still a bad day, no matter how i look at it.
but still, i love the time i spend with my batchmates (:

i dont want to change my seat.
i want charis <3
and hilary!

thank you charis
honestly, you're the nicest person i know.
and that song you sang today was really meaningful. even if it made me want to cry.
God will make a way

ohman.
life brings lots of problems.
life without problems is weird. but sometimes problems are so ... dont know. sometimes i cant take it anymore.
and it seems like nothing can really solve that problem.
but then we can all think of the song that my dear charis sang (:
haha

okay thats all :D
i should concentrate on the 5 orange blinking things on the toolbar :/